My liquid networth is sufficient to last me around 15 years at my current annual spend. I'm not FI yet but the thought of working a few more years to reach FI is nauseating. I'm rapidly losing motivation to work, and it's taking a toll on my mental (thoughts about work and pulling the trigger giving me insomnia) and physical health (been suffering from nausea and stomach cramps of late and I think it's due to stress).
I feel like such an ungrateful complainy pants and cannot share these thoughts with anyone because my job is more than decent: pays rather well (not a top earner by any means but definitely above median), lowish work load and great work life balance. However, just showing up (8-5 and WFH now) makes me stressed.
I took leave yesterday and today. While on leave, all my stress just melted away and it was/is so blissful just puttering about - walking to nearby markets/malls for meals, shopping for household items, cleaning, exercising, watching anime and weird YouTube videos, cooking, etc. Literally my perfect life <3
However, the thought of returning to work next Monday triggers nausea and stress. I really hate how I'm so mentally weak and have such low tolerance for stress. Other people can work their entire lives and raise a freaking village while at that, but I can't even seem to push myself to continue to work this "cushy" job until my mid-30s to reach FI for myself.
I wish I was mentally stronger.
