Updated my spreadsheets yesterday and discovered that my cash and investments have past the halfway mark to 1M. The upcoming goal is to reach BHS and FRS by age 31.
In the meantime, I'm still contemplating if I should quit my job. But then, I am 95% sure I will spend my unemployed days working out (more), watching (more) anime and going down (deeper) the YouTube rabbit hole of weird videos. I'm trying hard not to judge myself but why am I so intrinsically unproductive?
It has bugged me since time immemorial - my predisposition to underachieve. Since young, I never put in 100% effort into anything - be it into my studies, sports or work. I always did just enough, to the point where marginal effort = marginal utility. I mean, why put in that extra work for just a little bit more benefit? Plus, I don't even desire the pride or recognition that comes with excellence. It just seems like so much trouble. I rather do enough not to stay out of trouble and just chill. I'm always looking for the easy way out so that I can have free time to relax.
People (parents, partner, friends) always tell me... you can achieve so much more with your potential. Well, that potential means nothing if I don't put in the corresponding effort.
How did I come to develop such a predisposition to underachieve? Is it because I'm lazy? Is it because I don't desire excellence? Is it because winning means little to me? Is it because I'm scared of hard work? Is it because I am naturally predisposed to idling?
But there are virtues of hard work!! I know because my partner is the ambassador for hard work. He says, even if not for excellence/pride/ego/material benefits, there are other virtues of hard work: To work hard means to stretch your limit for hard work (use it or lose it) such that you develop resilience which can come in handy during trying times. To work hard means that you open yourself to the "flow" experience of hard work. To work hard means to open your world to more opportunities and serendipity, which can bring new experiences and flavours to one's life. To work hard means to....?????
Are there more convincing arguments for hard work?
How do I change my predisposition to "working hard"? I want to "want to work hard", if this makes sense.
